smelly fat smelly!

Friends around me would know that I'm madly in love with my hamsters cos' I keep forcing them to look at the pictures of my dear hamsters that I've snapped using the laopok LG phone. Now that I have all the free time in the world (not for long though ): starting work tomorrow!! gasped!!!), I shall post up pictures of my hamster-Smelly (Yes, smelly is the name) here! And they are all taken using a good old proper camera! It's hard to take photos of Smelly though, she's really fast and agile, even with all those fats.

Out of boredom, I read my past blog entries, and it surprised me to see that most of the time, I was usually very tired from mugging. Well, I know mugging is tiring physically, but why am I that mentally drained. I guess I do put my heart and soul into it. Too much that I'm missing out, big time. No CCA, no SEP, no hippy nightlife (maybe there's this party side in me) etc etc. But I'm not going to whine too much here, cos' at the very least, I get decent grades.

The point is, I shall strive to make my dear life a tad more interesting.

1) More holidaying! More road trips! Helllooooo Europe! I'll come for you. SOON!

2) Sports. Might as well, since I'm low on blood pressure, better do some sports. Swimming and tennis!

3) Enjoy working life to the fullest. That sounds pretty muggish, but hell yes, I'm going to do it!

4) Embark on a good business plan! *waves at eejun.

Shan't be ambitious so that's all for now. But do them, I will!!!

Went to sign the contract today. Deal sealed. No room for incessant worrying. But still, I cannot help but worry here and there. Worry that I'll screw up again, like my internship. Worry that I cannot get used to the environment. Worry this. Worry that. Argh! I'm so sick of myself!!!

Please Xinling! Just relax, enjoy and everything will be fine! I think I have done enough worrying for these 4 years, or in fact, my whole blardy life. From today onwards, I ought to reward myself by stop being so paranoid and worry unduly.

Target set. Gogogo!

I want to smile! and keep smiling!

YAYS! After going through gazillions of interviews, I finally got myself a job!! I'm so happy, cos' it's something I wanted, and the pay is decent! While I'm not too excited about the everyday 8 to 5 working hours, the thought of rotting at home unemployed makes me contented.

I'm really happy now cos' it has been a long depressing period. The rejection calls, and not to mention while I was in Aussie, I felt so angry with myself when I couldn't attend the jobsconnect career fair. But all those rejection trainings definitely paid off. When I think back, my interview skills really suck.

New beginning, new hope!

Till then, I shall enjoy and play!!!

Woah! Finally completed my FINAL exam in university (hopefully). But I didn't feel super happy. I guess I'm already used to this mug-exam-yays cycle that I don't really feel a thing. It has been the most tiring sem ever. I feel I've aged so much so much, both mentally and physically. I'm so glad it's all over, but looking at what lays ahead of me, I guess I'll definitely miss school. The freedom, the carefree-ness, and maybe, the mugging. It's crazy how fast these 4 years just zoom past. And looking back, I do enjoy my university life. It's a pity I didn't join any CCA, but the summer programme definitely made up for it. I'm so glad I decided to go for it afterall. It's just 6 weeks, but I think it really made a difference to my life.



I feel so lost now that I'm about to enter another phase of my life. Keep sending out resumes when at times, I don't even know what I really want. And it's getting a little depressing when rejection keep coming and coming. But I'm beginning to look at the brighter side. Every rejection makes me stronger, and I'm getting used to the interviews. And right now, I'll just keep my fingers crossed.



Woah, on a totally random note, I'm flying off to Australia tomorrow! 20 days vacation after 4 years of mugging! It just isnt fair but still I'm going to enjoy every minute of it! I have always wanted to go Australia even though alot of people have been telling me it's boring there. Quite interestingly, it's all because of a channel 8 drama! I even remember certain scenes and action (now i know why i couldnt remember all those chem engin stuffs). And on a bimbotic note, I borrowed a black trench coat from my aunty. Even bought black big sunglasses to go with it. And yes, my nails are painted in hot pink already!



Australia, here i COME!

And jobs, COME to me!

Feeling apprehensive about tomorrow's interview. And I guess this apprehensiveness is churning out negative emotions in me. I feel terrible now.

Used to think I have a bunch of close knitted friends in university. I really do, and I feel both proud and lucky to have this gang of people around me cos' it seems that university friends usually fall into the 'acquaintance' category, or a little more than acquaintance perhaps. So it feels great to have friends to whine over university woes together, to celebrate birthday for you, and most importantly, to care for you. I thought this bond was strong, but still, it failed to withstand the force of competition, at least in my contention. With time, with exams, with projects, with job interviews, I see the true colors. I see jealousy, I see anger, I see aversion. Not even a simple, how are you.

It's not about being sensitive or paranoid. It's a fact, it's screaming out loud, just a choice of denial or facing the truth.

Embrace challenge.

Sigh.

Realised I have been neglecting this poor blog of mine, so here's a quick review of everything!

Just submitted my fyp report about 1 week ago, which definitely is a major load off my mind. Though there's still the poster presentation, but I shan't worry over it now (cos' there's so much vexing stuffs at the moment). Fyp has been draining both mentally and physically. and. socially. But after hearing horror stories from the people around me, I guess I'm very lucky already. I'm just glad the major part of it is over already.

Haven't really gotten a good break after the fyp cos' school has started already. And I know the break prolly won't come looking at the requirements of the design project. But it's the final sem already so I shall push on, with whatever remaining energy left after those 3 horrendous years.

Speaking of which, it dawned on me that I'm graduating (!!!) Sharks. No more school = time to find a job = interview interview interview. While I hope that interviews come quickly, they seriously traumatise me at the same time. Already yesterday I'm losing sleep over the interview that's coming 2 days later. And I hope I get this one cos' that's where I really wish to work in. Pray for me!

Alrights, I shall go back to my interview preparation. Will update, eh, soon? hopefully with good news!