Woah! Finally completed my FINAL exam in university (hopefully). But I didn't feel super happy. I guess I'm already used to this mug-exam-yays cycle that I don't really feel a thing. It has been the most tiring sem ever. I feel I've aged so much so much, both mentally and physically. I'm so glad it's all over, but looking at what lays ahead of me, I guess I'll definitely miss school. The freedom, the carefree-ness, and maybe, the mugging. It's crazy how fast these 4 years just zoom past. And looking back, I do enjoy my university life. It's a pity I didn't join any CCA, but the summer programme definitely made up for it. I'm so glad I decided to go for it afterall. It's just 6 weeks, but I think it really made a difference to my life.



I feel so lost now that I'm about to enter another phase of my life. Keep sending out resumes when at times, I don't even know what I really want. And it's getting a little depressing when rejection keep coming and coming. But I'm beginning to look at the brighter side. Every rejection makes me stronger, and I'm getting used to the interviews. And right now, I'll just keep my fingers crossed.



Woah, on a totally random note, I'm flying off to Australia tomorrow! 20 days vacation after 4 years of mugging! It just isnt fair but still I'm going to enjoy every minute of it! I have always wanted to go Australia even though alot of people have been telling me it's boring there. Quite interestingly, it's all because of a channel 8 drama! I even remember certain scenes and action (now i know why i couldnt remember all those chem engin stuffs). And on a bimbotic note, I borrowed a black trench coat from my aunty. Even bought black big sunglasses to go with it. And yes, my nails are painted in hot pink already!



Australia, here i COME!

And jobs, COME to me!

Feeling apprehensive about tomorrow's interview. And I guess this apprehensiveness is churning out negative emotions in me. I feel terrible now.

Used to think I have a bunch of close knitted friends in university. I really do, and I feel both proud and lucky to have this gang of people around me cos' it seems that university friends usually fall into the 'acquaintance' category, or a little more than acquaintance perhaps. So it feels great to have friends to whine over university woes together, to celebrate birthday for you, and most importantly, to care for you. I thought this bond was strong, but still, it failed to withstand the force of competition, at least in my contention. With time, with exams, with projects, with job interviews, I see the true colors. I see jealousy, I see anger, I see aversion. Not even a simple, how are you.

It's not about being sensitive or paranoid. It's a fact, it's screaming out loud, just a choice of denial or facing the truth.

Embrace challenge.

Sigh.

Realised I have been neglecting this poor blog of mine, so here's a quick review of everything!

Just submitted my fyp report about 1 week ago, which definitely is a major load off my mind. Though there's still the poster presentation, but I shan't worry over it now (cos' there's so much vexing stuffs at the moment). Fyp has been draining both mentally and physically. and. socially. But after hearing horror stories from the people around me, I guess I'm very lucky already. I'm just glad the major part of it is over already.

Haven't really gotten a good break after the fyp cos' school has started already. And I know the break prolly won't come looking at the requirements of the design project. But it's the final sem already so I shall push on, with whatever remaining energy left after those 3 horrendous years.

Speaking of which, it dawned on me that I'm graduating (!!!) Sharks. No more school = time to find a job = interview interview interview. While I hope that interviews come quickly, they seriously traumatise me at the same time. Already yesterday I'm losing sleep over the interview that's coming 2 days later. And I hope I get this one cos' that's where I really wish to work in. Pray for me!

Alrights, I shall go back to my interview preparation. Will update, eh, soon? hopefully with good news!

Woah, finally, my internship stint has finally come to an end (not including the 3 days handover, zzz). Really glad it's over cos' that means good-bye to reaching office at 7.15am, going back at 630pm usually. For the first time, i really feel tired. I really feel that urgh, im-dragging-myself-out-of-bed feeling. It makes me appreciate school alot. That freedom. So yep, im actually looking forward to heading back to school (: Haha, yep, im a mugger!

But these 6 months definitely have been rewarding. It totally exposed that weaker side of me. To be honest, I'm really quite disappointed with myself. I do believe i have that ability and depth to excel. But why cant i deliver that confidence, that belief? No use lamenting over the lost opportunity but it's a wake-up call definitely.

What doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. Go go go!!

bday

Woah, it's a great saturday weekend, and i'm still working on my presentation for work. bahhs, super no life! and i got a feeling ill cui for the presentation also. zz. Need to get some breather, so here I am, blogging away!

Had a great great dinner with the sec sch gang yesterday (: A belated celebration for my bday!

With the very proud members of ex-CLDDS (points eejun and cheek), we started to snap random shots of random plots. Erm, i think eejun is supposed to be the two-timer between kaifen and cheek, so cheek is pissed! And ehh, i'm just the lu ren jia. haha! Notice kaifen is the biggest cam-whore ever, still got time and mood to look at camera!

Another shot (cos just now kaifen was busy cam-whoring nia) but err, i dont know what eejun is doing. i thought qing fu should look abit more remorseful. hahaha!

i like this shot alot alot! we looked darn happy, cos cheek nearly fall down while running back to take position. then everyone was stiffling their laughter.

Another shot! haha, super deviated from central position. But ayes, im too lazy to crop the picture

Beloved "gifts" from them. Haha! so this is real friendship, as it gets longer, just get the money and get your own present. Well done friends!

Haha, it's really funny when I run after them to get my present money, as if im some loan-shark. And no worries lao peng you, i really love the gift this time round. haha! and I'm really looking forward to the overseas trip together!! (:(:(:!!!

random

Alrightts, im super bored and did this personality quiz, credits to eejun. here goes!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Had a 10 years anniversary gathering with the lovely bunch of sec sch friends today! (oh dear, it's that long!) Haha, being the usual cheapo us, we went to Seoul garden for buffet, wanting to eat from 11 to 5. But ehs, lao le lao le, low metabolism rate, so we could only tahan for like ehh 3 hrs only, which makes me wonder how in the world did we manage to gorge and swallow all those food back then!

Ohh, and since it's the celebration for 10 years of friendship, we brought along photos and yearbook to sort of look back on the supposedly fond memories. But i think i would rather throw those photos into a safe, and prolly take them out for laugh once a while only. Hahas! I cant believe how terrible, unglam, and gross we look last time! And the pose were super funny! There's even the retro beach, trees, and sand background. Hoho! So yep, i aint gonna post those photos here, case people start to use them for blackmail.

But instead, I'm gonna post the neoprints we took today! Haha, all i can say is: Hey dear friends, we look good man! Woohoo!

10 years! EeJun, i love your hairband. So retro!

Cheapo! Nah, thrifty is the right word.

Yoyo! Haha, that's our favorite pose years and years back!

Picture perfect!

I love this photo! So comical!---> points at ej's face

10 years, and still counting!