random

Now that exams are over, my life has returned to the nua-ing stage, so there isnt really anything i can blog about. Here are some random thoughts though...

I went to esplanade today. There happened to be a piano performance, so i just sat down and listened. As the music flows, i was filled with both admiration and jealousy. Admiration, cos' he could play well. Jealousy, cos' it's something I could probably never acheive in my whole life. The more i listened, the more i start to hate myself. Maybe hate is too strong a word. But i just feel angry with myself. For what i dont really know. Hmm.. maybe hate myself for being totally untalented? too practical?

At the end of the day, i can only console myself that im already a much blessed girl. My life aint that bad afterall, so there's no point wallowing in self-pity, wishing i were someone else. Well life doesnt go according to how i wanted, but i do have the power to make little improvements here and there right?

True, i prolly cant play in the concert hall for millions of people, but i can practise hard, and play in my little room, and maybe my neighbours will appreciate? Whatever it is, i shall never wish that im someone else again.

Power to the people. power to ME!